I'm Back-My Mental Health Battle

The reason why I've been gone for so long due to my mental health.

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Hey Movie Lovers,

Long time no see hey. I know this is different and a strange article to return back to but I want to address why I've been gone for nearly six months and what will happen going forward. I haven't really prepared what I'm going to say so please just bare with me on this read and I also don't know how long this article will be but if you take the time to listen to me I would be greatly thankful.

So the reason why I have been gone for nearly six months is that I have a very long history with Mental Health that stems right back to when I was a toddler. I'm not going to go into details but that's when it all started for me quite serverly and ever since it's affected me to the point I get lazy and I fall out of love with things, this being one of them. I had a very bad mental breakdown last year due to something personal and I finally got the help I was very much craving and needed for years. This was and still is my road to somewhat recovery, I know I never will rid of my mental health problems but I have learnt some amazing techniques that I use to help me control them just that bit better so I have my counselor to thank for that and also for making me go see my doctor and getting the medication that I needed too.

At the start of this year I decided to start my own movie review page which is the one you are on this very second. I thought it would be brilliant to start the leap into movie reviews since I have been doing them on my Letterboxd page (NathanMorty if you want to follow me). So i started and I started to love doing them (reviews) but I was noticing they weren't getting many views, this instantly starts my anxiety and depression off becuase no matter what I do I always put 100% effort into it and if I don't feel like its paying off then I go into a mode of giving up which for me is too easy. I know you have to start small to gain a following but mental health doesn't allow you to think like that, the slightest bit of failing and that's it.

To put it bluntly it took a massive knock effect on me and I just thought that it wasn't worth my time and energy. In the six months that I have gone I have seen some of the newest releases in the cinema and I've started to slowly review again on my Letterboxd to gain the skills back up. Today is an important day as I've decided going forward that I want to fall back in love writing movie reviews again and so I will be making a return slowly but surely.

I also want to add that I will be supporting the MEN TOO movement which explains the picture at the top of this article. The biggest killer in men in the UK is mental health and its because we as men have been psychologically trained to be "tough" and "not show emotions" because society deemed it weak. If you are reading this and (man or woman)and you need help or someone to talk too never be afraid to contact me on my social media pages so we can chat, wether it's about things you are going through or if you want to talk movies I don't mind adn my DM's are open 24/7.

If you have read some of my reviews that I did do at the start of the year then I thank you from the bottom of my heart as it means so much more to me than you could ever imagine. Knowing someone, somewhere is taking the time out of there day to read my review and ramblings on a movie is genuinley amazing so thank you. if this is your first entry into this journey then thank you for just taking the time to read this and I hope you will join me and the small community I hope to gain along the way and contuine to read my reviews. I will hopefully be starting my journey in university studying Film/TV Production at the Liverpool Media Academy (LMA) next week so I will try and schedule in some time to writing movie reviews.

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Thank you again for checking out this personal entry and I will start to make reviews again and if theres anything you like or want to discuss then join in the conversation with #WithMorty on all social media platforms.